The big fall, the bigger fail

I failed. Yet again. 

If you guys have been keeping track of my limited number of posts, you would know that I have had an eating disorder for quite a while now. It is through this blog that I manage to pour my heart out and maybe give you tips on how to manage your diet. When I started out, I was motivated like nothing before and wanted to get a serious program out. I wanted to see through the entire Kris Gethin Workout, and for three months I relentlessly persevered. I worked out hard, I ate a limited amount, and just when I was about to achieve my goal, something happened.

Actually, a lot of things happened. These factors combined just pushed me off track.

Firstly. the gym I went to unexpectedly closed down for repairs. I know what you’re thinking. Exercise could be anything. I could have just run around the block. At this point however, I had reached a stage of intense workouts and running just didn’t cut it. I’d go to the gym each day expecting it to start, but the trainer always told me to come back two days later and check. They were revamping the whole gym. This just pushed me off my workout game for good.

Then came the illness. I had got some sort of infection in my lymph nodes under my arm and they had to keep medicating it and eventually cut it out. For two weeks I couldn’t move my arm, which means even running was out of the questions (swinging my arm like you do when you run also hurt). This additionally gave me the mental incentive to stop dieting and just eat. I told myself,”Your body needs more food to get better, you can start again when you’re better.”

Then came the drive. However, the onset of this drive was a little difference. Since I had conditioned myself to portion meals and limited eating, I didn’t really start getting a massive binge craving all of a sudden. In the beginning, I used to just eat a little here and there, and then one day I went out with some friends and had a large meal. I was so tensed that night about what the weighing scale would tell me the day after. And then, something amazing happened.

My weight hadn’t changed the next day. It was the same.

I felt so ecstatic. How was it that I had such a large meal and at the end of it, didn’t even gain a single gram? I thought for sure that I was going to go back to my old weight, but I stayed strong at 76 kg.

And then the temptation crept in.

“Why don’t you test your BMI? See how strong it is”

I decided to eat in moderate amounts all of the food I had been avoiding and check the scale every single day, and stop immediately if I saw any significant amount. I was more curious than anything to see at what point my body would break. Given the limited amount of on and off exercise I was doing, I had time to actually do this. I guess when you’re in the whole fitness zone, you’re in it. Once you’re thrown off, its really hard to get back on the horse, and things just escalate. In about two weeks I realized I wasn’t really experimenting anymore, I was just plain out binge eating. I also started getting massive sugar cravings. I’d eat at least 5 servings of ice cream in a day and top it off with all sorts of junk food.

Then things just got worse.

My gym reopened but by that time I was so off workouts that I didn’t really go regularly. This, added to the fact that my entire diet was thrown off just gave in to the regular binge eating. Additionally, my weight was going up at a really slow pace, which put another stupid thought in my mind.

“I’ll stop when I’m back at 80 kg. It will be easy to get back to 76 from there”

I don’t know why I’d think such a stupid thing. I guess I just wanted some sort of validation to start eating again. It wasn’t long before I started seeing myself on the same old binge cycle I described in the first post. It was really horrible because I blew almost all of my savings on my binge eating habits.I had previously saved up for a new wardrobe for when I lose weight, but almost all of it went into food.

I guess you have to hit rock bottom when you’re on a downward spiral, in order to get back up again and get on the horse.

My rock bottom was when my girlfriend told me I’m fat, and that I don’t look good as good as I used to. This just hit me really hard. The very next day I happened  to get an Instagram posts of one of the guys I went to school with. I never really liked the guy. He was rich and had everything I didn’t. I used to work hard in college with the hopes that one day I’ll be bigger than people like him. But then I saw  his picture. He looked shredded. He looked exactly like I wanted to look.

And I felt so miserable. I needed a solace. I needed a fix. I needed something to fill my emotional void.

I needed food.

On I went, eating more and more. I’d fill up on random rubbish I didn’t even like eating. I’d give myself the excuse that I’d start the next day that this was  going to be last binge and that was it. Slowly and slowly my arm started healing but I don’t know why, I just didn’t feel the same anymore.

I checked my weight two days ago. It was 81.5 kg.

And that was it.

Starting today, I begin working out again. I will begin eating moderately, and once every week I will cheat so that I don’t fall back hard. I am starting on Kris Gethin’s DTP workout. I don’t care anymore. I’m going to do this shit. If I fall sick, I’m still going to hold my diet pretty strong. I’m going to work out super hard. I’m going to LOVE working out. The sweat leaving my body, the endorphins rushing through my system, that clean feeling when I haven’t gorged on fried shit. I want that back. I want to feel good when I look in the mirror. I want to be able to wear good, fitting clothes with no part of my body bulging out. I want to try on new clothes and look good in them. I want my cheeks to be shaped and not puffed. I want to have good skin and good hair. I want to be able to run and climb a flight of stairs without gasping for breath. I want to be able to do at least 20 pull ups without stopping. I want that feeling of having worked out in a good way.

I’m starting now, and I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon. I hope I have your love and support. Thank you so much for reading my previous posts and giving me your supportive comments. I wrote this post, because I plan on reading it every single day when I wake up. I hope it helps those who have failed. Just get back on the horse.


Dealing with failure and overcoming it

What is failure? What is it like to fail?

I haven’t binged since I begun, but every now and then I keep eating small cheat meals, so that I don’t get tempted for bigger ones. That, however, is still failure for me at some level. The journey on the path of fitness is a constantly evolving one. There are so many things you can explore and learn, about your own body, and with each step you get closer. Here are some of the things I have learnt during my journey so far.




These are the things I still have to learn.




When you start working out, it is generally just to lose weight. Weight loss is one of the biggest motivators, or mostly because of personal reasons such as people taunting you, making fun of you and the like. At the core of all of this, is anger. Anger is sometimes the biggest motivator. The problem with anger is that it is short lived. I have come down to 20% body fat now, and I’ve realized that I’ve run out of all my anger. Everything I had pent up within me, all of the frustration, it’s all going away slowly. I’m not saying I’m fit. I’m not even saying that I’m over my binge eating problem. I may fail. I may give up again.

But I’ve got clarity like never before.

When you watch all of these motivational videos and trainers speak, and you’re not that much into fitness, you’ll roll your eyes every time they tell you that getting a six pack is not all that important and having strength is more important. I mean what do they know right? It’s quite evident that everyone around you likes calling guys hot, and more often than not those guys tend to have abs. In fact, the trainer who’s telling you to focus on fitness is doing so without a shirt, flaunting his chiseled body at the camera. It is a study in hypocrisy.

My goal now, is to reach peak physical fitness, no matter what.

Think of it this way, when you are at peak physical fitness, you are bound to look good and probably even have abs. But what’s more important is that you will be in full control of your body. You will be at mental peace. I love opening my cupboard now. I haven’t lost all that much of weight but the weight loss has been enough for me to fit into my clothes again, and I love trying on new things I never even knew I had in my wardrobe. I’m kind of a hoarder that way. I used to buy clothes and say to myself ‘I’ll wear these when I’m in shape’ That day never came because I always gave up on my diet and my workout routine. It was always the same excuse. I was this close to my results and then some birthday, some party, some treat came up. Before I knew it, I was back on the drive.

Not this time though.

I don’t know if it is because I’m writing about it, or because I have a changed outlook towards the whole concept of eating, but I don’t feel the drive anymore. I don’t pass a roadside and think to myself,”Yeah I need to gorge down all these things”. It may have been due to the change in lifestyle or the fact that I feel accountable to all my readers (even if it might be just one). If you were to fail and eat a bit too much, what would happen?

Previously I’d feel the guilt. It was so heavy on me. It used to sit on my shoulders and keep menacing me about how useless I am and how it’s all over. And that’s the worst part. When your mind start steering your guilt towards “What does it even matter anymore? Why diet now? Why workout? You just ruined it all”, that is the place where you go back into binge eating. This is the one thought that you are supposed to avoid at all costs. It doesn’t matter if you’re talking about binge eating or anything else. When you are persevering towards something with all your might and you fail, the one thought you should not listen to is where your mind tells you its all over now, and that you should just go back to the way things were.

Getting out of your comfort zone is difficult because your mind is comfortable in that zone. It doesn’t want to come out, and it will look for each and every opportunity to try and make you go back. In such a situation you cannot really listen and obey. You have to fight it. You had a bad binge? No biggie, start again tomorrow. If you have been working out well and your diet has been good, your body will get rid of the junk in a week or two. Just keep your resolve. Don’t feel bad and go back to that lifestyle again.

I’ve reached a point of stagnancy now. Nothing is changing. I’ve gotten to about 79 kg but nothing is happening past that. I think this is the part where I have to be patient. This would previously have been the part where I give up.

Not anymore.

I’m going to keep trying harder and striving towards perfection. This isn’t some race where I’m trying to reach the finish line before everyone else. This isn’t to prove anything to anyone. I’m just trying to find peace, and for that I want to get rid of all the clutter in my life. The biggest form of clutter I see right now is my own body fat, and getting rid of it using the right ways will make me agile, active and fresh.

If you have faced failure out there or are struggling with weight loss, please read this entire article very carefully again. Your mind is your enemy, and destroying your tendency to binge and remaking new brain tendencies to lead a clean eating life, is going to take some time. Overcoming your temptations is going to take some time. Getting your life back on track IS GOING TO TAKE SOME TIME. Accept this fact and move on. Don’t be in a hurry to achieve results. Clean eat as if its a chore. Workout as if its a chore. Soon you will start to feel good and want to do it. Until then be patient with yourself. Don’t be so hard. Be kind on your body. Give it the nutrition it needs, don’t deprive it. Make sure you have enough to rebuild after you have burned off.

I hope you guys keep reading this and keep working at it. Peace.

Staying the course, even when you fail

It’s important to understand one very essential fact when you’re striving towards basically any goal. The most important lesson that most people forget.

New goals to be set are just as important as the ones you’ve passed, because stagnancy is the enemy of progress.

I’ve come down to 81.7kg and about 22% body fat. It’s great news for me. The problem is, I’ve realized the fact that once I get to 15% body fat, I’ll be faced with the quintessential question.

What now?

I mean I can take pictures of myself, put them on Facebook, make all the females that dumped me jealous, make my guy friends message me for tips, and keep working out to go even lower or maintain my current stats. But is that it?

The problem with staying the course, like I mentioned earlier, is motivation. Motvation to work even when you think you’re almost there, and after. Motivation to keep running. If you’ve passed the finish line, take another track and start again. At 15%, I may be in great shape, but where will I be as a human being. Is the body the only thing that should be trained?

That is why I’m planning to train my mind as well. I plan to put my brain through a rigorous regime, because the brain is a muscle too, and if you don’t exercise it, it’s going to get flaccid (not literally, this is a metaphor). I plan on learning new things. A new language, a new subject that I’ve never touched before, and probably hate. I’m going to start from the very basics and work my way up, just like I did with my body. At some point I am bound to see progress. As a human being, you never really run out of goals. There is so much knowledge out there. If you’ve been pursuing one subject like we’ve all been trained to do in life, and if you wake up one morning and say ‘You know what, I’m going to study Quantum Physics/French Literature/Political Science for the heck of it!’ no one’s going to come at you with a spear. Thanks to the internet today, knowledge is free, and it’s out there. Maybe you’ll never use what you learn, but we forget that the end goal isn’t important, the offshoots are.

In the process of learning new things, you will get new topics to make conversation about. This in turn will make you come off as a smart and interesting person. You can write articles and send them to online newsletters, start your own blog, do basically anything. I mean for the love of God even MIT has started putting up it’s lectures on an open source platform! What’s stopping you?! Go and get educated!

Education and training of the mind is just as important as training of the body. If we all train our minds a little bit every day, we might one day become a much smarter world, and see through the blanket of ignorance that politicians, world leaders, and everyone else is trying to pull over us.

As for me, I’ve decided on one foreign language and one hour of mathematics, every single day. I’m going to wake up an hour early and do half an hour of each. I may get bored, daunted, thrown down and beaten, but I’m going to keep at it till I start understanding what I’m studying. If I don’t understand a topic, I’m going to read it again, watch YouTube videos, take online tutorials, WHATEVER IT TAKES!

Hoping to tell you about some progress in my next blog.

Progress and Motivation for Weight loss

I feel good today. I had legs (Kris Gethin 12 week trainer), and man did I give it my best. This entire week I have had a lot of motivation, and most of it came from within. Of course, this doesn’t mean I didn’t watch endless YouTube videos to get motivated. I want to talk about stagnancy in weight loss today.

When you stop binge eating and start working out, chances are you are going to start losing weight real quick. The good thing is that with the help of the web, you don’t need a gym anymore. You could get an entire fitness plan for free from the internet. No! Don’t go out there and pirate premium workouts. I’m talking about other free workouts. Here are a few channels:

If you mail me, I could send you another 10 sources (for free). Fitness has gone from being this mystery secret that common people thought only existed with the bodybuilders and athletes, to something that is so common that a person following it for about two weeks can have most of the info that a professional would. What a great time to be alive.

When it comes to binge eating again, self control is key. I could tell you  a million tricks (nothing new that a simple Google search won’t reveal) but it is ultimately up to the you because when the binge drive hits you, you are all by yourself. No one is going to come at that specific moment and tell you to stop. You could explain to your friends and family a million times that you’re dieting or trying to control your binge, but chances are they won’t really know what you’re talking about. At that particular moment, you will be your greatest strength and your biggest weakness. All you have to do is remember why you started, and go back to that one moment, that lowest point, that ultimate failure, that made you take up fitness.

I’ll just tell you a little story of what my lowest point was. If you have read the prologue (link) you might have come across the fact that I had once done high intensity interval training for 2 months straight and lost a lot of weight, slimmed down and even started building muscle. Before this particular incident, I was a binge eater for about 3 years straight. There was nothing that came between me and my binge, and my enforcers made sure of that. So what was it that made me change my ways?

One bad day. That’s all it took.

It was the day of my graduation and I had to go to my college. I weighed 92kgs back then and was a size XXL. I went to college early, had a large pizza before I could go to the ceremony and then made my way there. It was a collective graduation ceremony, with people from different streams coming together. Arts, Natural Sciences, Applied Sciences, etc. We had our pictures taken, degrees collected and caps thrown, and after everything was said and done we had a prize ceremony for all the achievers. I was amongst them becuase I had scored really well. I felt like a winner.

One by one people’s names were called out. Everyone went on stage, took their prizes, posed for pictures, and went out the other way. It was my turn. I went on stage, shook hands with the principal and posed for pictures. I couldn’t hear a single clap in the entire auditorium. They might as well just ahve booed me off the stage. I felt a little bad, but not so much. I went off stage. And then this strange thing happened. This other student, my namesake was called on. He had pretty much achieved the same thing as me, and when he went on stage the crowd hollered and cheered. Everyone loved him. He was quite the popular kid.

Suddenly I didn’t feel like all that much of a winner.

That evening I went home and was eating my way through a bag of chips when suddenly I heard the beeping of my phone. It was the same guy, my namesake, who also happened to be the guy in charge of giving out the photographs. He congratulated me and then sent me my picture. And there I was.



I know this might sound like a body image problem, and I know that I have to accept what I am. I also know that being fat had nothing to do with anything. He was popular because he was more outgoing, and friendlier than I was.

But still. That one moment where I took a look at myself. I threw the bag of chips as they were in the dustbin (I never EVER waste food, so that was a big deal). I decided to change my life. And then I started working out every single day for two months till I had gotten slim again. The problem was, I didn’t know what to do once that workout was over. I mean, I had lost weight, what now?

The problem with motivation is that when you start to get closer to your goal, it begins to waiver. Satisfaction is the biggest enemy of progress. If you’re satisfied with what you have, you automatically think you don’t have to work anymore, and you end up going back to where you started. That is why binge eaters are known to starve themselves till they lose weight and then one day go nuts with their bingeing. A consistent level of motivation is a necessity. I have seen this with many people who come to the gym. Unlike me (and some other people) their goals aren’t to get fit. They want to look good because they want chicks, and things like that. They start off with very high levels of motivation, and one of two things happen. They either reach halfway through to their goals and reach a plateau, or they don’t lose weight very quick. In the second scenario, they give up because they’re frustrated, and that’s bad. The former scene, however, is much worse, because they have reached halfway, and just because they get satisfied with their results, they start falling back. Missing workouts, regular bingeing, all the motivation comes crumbling down.

That is why you should always be deconstructing old goals and making new ones. Make small, achievable goals. I understand that if you want to go from 90kgs to 80kgs, that may be a great goal, but the problem is if you don’t achieve it in time your motivation might waver. So break your goal down. Plan to go from 90 to 87, and when you reach 87 push aside that goal and replace it with the one to go from 87 to 84, and so on. When your goals are small and easily achievable, you begin to feel more accomplished as you complete them. That’s when you stay consistent. I know I have to go down to about 15% body fat, but I’m not really going to aim to go from 27% to 15%. I’m planning to go to 24% first.

Stay motivated. Use any means necessary if it doesn’t come from within, and keep working till your results are reason enough for you to wake up the next day and keep your body moving.


How to control Binge Eating

Okay, so I haven’t posted in a while, and it may seem like I may have gone down the rails. That however, isn’t the case. I’ve pretty much been successful (in this week, there are still chances of me going astray). There are so many different things that I’ve learnt during this week, right from controlling myself to the emotional turmoil that is caused when you start to avoid binge eating. When you are a binger, food is basically your do all and get all. When you stop looking to food as a means of your emotional satisfaction, there is a huge void in your life that you don’t know how to fill.

To begin with, you don’t know what to do with all that time. Eating less makes you feel weak (even though you are just getting accustomed to not bingeing) and at the same time, the amount of time you spent bingeing now seems hollow. Take these two scenarios.

I used to go out on a walk almost every day. On the way there is a multitude of fast food joints and while returning from my walk I used to make sure I gorged on whatever I could. Soon the walks just became just another excuse to eat. I used to set out of the house with money in my hand looking forward to that biting into the various foods I craved. This of course, was all part of the drive.

The second scenario is the present, where I pretty much am actively trying to avoid the binge. When I go for a walk now I have nothing to look forward to. As a result, I tend to enjoy the walk less, which directly results in the duration of the walks getting lesser and lesser. I get bored very soon. You see, the whole intent of the walk has been removed. Now it’s just a regular walk. And who wants to just walk right?

Wrong. These are one of the first things that you might face when you decide to avoid the binge. There are so many events in your life that you will realize, were just centered around food, or were an excuse for you to binge. All those things will now seem hollow. That is why you have to think of other things to fill up this void. I, for one, picked music and reading, and of course, a strenuous workout every day.

The second thing that you will begin to feel is an emotional void. Everything around you will start to change as the brain fog just melts away. I was left with a lot of questions this week.

  1. What am I doing with my life?
  2. What are my goals?
  3. Is she even attracted to me anymore?
  4. Why can’t I just have a normal metabolism?
  5. Am I a good human being?
  6. What is the point of all this?

You’ll get moody, and very angry with yourself. People around you will try to take this as a laughing matter and even eat in front of your face. They will talk about your disorder like it’s not that big of a deal. ‘Just control yourself’ is what they’ll say.

Let them.

There is just one key to success here, and that is motivation. Thanks to the internet today, motivation does not need to come from within. It has to, but in the initial stages chances are that it won’t. So you just have to think about one question amongst all of the ones above.

What is your goal?

I have chalked out a goal for myself now. I don’t want to lose weight anymore. I want to lose body fat. I am at 27% body fat right now. my goal is to go down to 12%.

I have that goal now, and I have so many people on YouTube who are constantly putting up videos on how they did it. The plus point about that is that you learn a lot. The second thing you get is a lot of motivation. Just keep doing what you’re doing every single day without thinking about it. If you are on the road to quit bingeing, keep a few healthy snacks by your side. I went out today to shop and got myself a lot of health snacks like protein bars and protein chips. They were a little expensive, but I saved up.

I carry a protein bar with me. You can even carry something as cheap as a banana and have that.

The thing to remember is, there is a very easy process when you think about bingeing that you can follow. Here it is.

Sit down.

Take a deep breath, and focus on your inhale and exhale. Breathe again. Slowly. Slow down your breaths as your progress and have a keen focus on your breath. Notice how your chest inflates and deflates with every breath. Do this for an entirety of 2 minutes. Once that is done just ask yourself:

Is this really worth it?

Do I really need this binge right now?

Is there any way I can work around it?

You should be fine. Just hang in there. Temptations are the worst mainly because people around a binge eater do not take his or her problem very seriously. But you can’t expect them to. They do not know what you’re going through. To them it’s just a person who ate a lot and now doesn’t want to eat. You are alone in this. Take responsibility, don’t be scared. Be aware, go online, get knowledge and take steps.


Take action. Now. You can do it. I believe in you.


Day 4 and Day 5 : How Binge eating gets to you

I’m sorry I couldn’t post yesterday. It was a long day and so was today. I really want to keep a tab on all my workouts so here goes.

Yesterday was back and bis and I kicked ass in it. I not only ran for 20 mins before the workout, I also managed to run 15 mins later and in between I lifted like a bull. It was the single most moment in quite some time that I felt the surge of adrenaline and the happiness that comes with the afterglow of working out. Puppies and rainbows, everyone.

Anywho, today was a rest day and I didn’t really workout. My entire body is aching. It feels like I was in a stampede and I barely survived. As I continue on with my 5th day from binge eating, I am beginning to notice a few things. The first is the fact that I have a LOT of time and mental emptiness at hand. Let me explain. When I was bingeing, the only thought in my mind was about the next thing I wanted to eat. When I was bored that is all I thought about. After a hard day’s work, that is what I used to look forward to.

Today I finished an 8 hour writing sessions (work) on my computer and as soon as I was done, I realized I didn’t know what I was going to do next. Was I going to eat? No becuase I had just eaten a few hours ago. I didn’t feel like doing much and was super bored for two hours until I finally decided to go for a walk and while away time till the next meal. I know what most people will say. Get an activity, or something you like. But this will take some time and getting used to.

The other thing I want to talk about is the hunger. I don’t know if it is my body or my mind revolting, but I’m feeling more hungry than I ever did before. I eat a meal (a substantial one) and an hour later I’m still hungry. I guess I’m either metabolizing things faster or I’m mentally trying to reject the whole abstinence thing. Either ways, I am motivated enough to go all the way.

I do confess, I did overeat yesterday, but only by a bit, and almost all of it was home-made healthy food. Brown rice, pulses, and the like are  a staple part of my diet now. The good news is that I’ve managed to keep my eating and fasting windows accurately maintained both the days.

Tomorrow is the mark of a brand new week. I will be starting all over again. There is so much to do. However, I have to bear in mind to keep writing. I cannot just give up again.This is the part of the commitment I made. I also promised myself that after I cross the 2-week threshold of working out without a single stop, I will make it a point to integrate the whole mental workout into the regime. I want to start studying again for my higher studies, so I hope to get that started as well. The one thing that binge eating does to you is it makes your brain all foggy and you can’t manage to think straight. I am managing to get some clarity in thought and self-control.

However, I’m not going to get too ahead of myself. Patience and consistency. Patience and consistency. COME ON I CAN DO THIS!!!

Day 3: Rest…but did I?


I should use more catchy titles. Something like ‘A guy woke up in the morning, what he did next will blow your mind’ is bound to get more readers. Anywho that’s not my goal so screw it.

So I’m feeling a little proud of myself. A little optimistic and a little hopeful. Why you ask? (Even if you didn’t, ask now…Good. Now we’re up to speed)

Waking up and The 11am eating threshold:

Well I got a lot done today. I woke up at 7am in the morning and started working. I was hungry but I had a cup of green tea and then it was gone for the moment. As promised I wanted to not eat till 11am (intermittent fasting, read the prologue). But then a thought came to mind.

Do I really want to rest today? This doesn’t feel right.

As I’ve learnt lately, my biggest problem is that I’m very active mentally. That is not a good thing, as many people have told me. It makes me talk a lot (A LOT). It makes me fidget a lot. I always want to partake in or watch some form of action. And the worst part is I NEVER GET TIRED. It takes a great deal of effort to calm my mind down. In February of 2015 I had started doing the Insanity workout. Even though I woke up every morning and did 40 minutes of intensive training, I wasn’t tired during the day. I mean I was a little fatigued right after the workout but then I’d still manage to go up and down three flights of stairs to and from my college classrooms. It was Month 2 of Insanity which made me push the limit to 58 minutes of high intensity cardio, that finally brought some peace of mind to me. I felt tired enough to talk a little less, but the problem was I felt too tired to focus. However, I have to hand it to Shaun T, I lost 18 kgs in 60 days.

Of course thanks to Mr.Binge I gained them back progressively in a span of 6 months or so.

Freelectics, my road to sweat:

Anyway, coming back, I didn’t feel it just right that I wasn’t going to do any kind of physical exercise throughout the day. That is why I decided to go with the freelectics option. I had been hearing about freelectics for a long time now, and previously I thought it was something like crossfit. Then I heard that there’s an app version which is partially free. I downloaded the Freelectics bodyweight app (because you can do those workouts anywhere, so I figured I’d squeeze some in on rest days in the Kris Gethin workout) and I was amazed. Right there was all the help I needed.

I mean the sheer number of workouts there are amazing. They’re free and you can do them anywhere.

So I took up the Prometheus workout and there were two options. the first was Prometheus 1X and the second one was Prometheus 2X, the latter just being the former twice repeated. Being the arrogant piece of dog feces that I am, I went with the 2X option thinking I could ace it without a single problem. I mean the 1X was only 15 minutes and the 2X was half an hour. I wanted something substantial and the list of exercises didn’t look very intimidating. I was going to ace it, I was confident, I was determined.

I was wrong.

I barely pushed throught the first 15 mins (1X basically) and at the end of it I was dripping in sweat. But the good thing was that I felt good. If there’s anyone out there that just wants to be fit, and wants to sweat it out for 15 minutes a day just to get a feel of the rush, I recommend Freelectics.

No they’re not sponsoring me. I just liked the app and thought I’d tell you. Neither is Shaun T by the way. or Kris Gethin. I mean when your entire readership is about 6 people, and one of them is you, sponsors don’t really swarm around your blog.


Okay so I had a breakfast of an apple and some green tea before I started out with the Freelectics, and later in the day I had an omelette of 2 eggs(whole) and some brown rice. It was a fairly light lunch.

In the evening I had 3 slices of whole wheat bread and an egg white omellete (2 eggs). I also had an orange.

At night I plan on having some brown rice.


Now, I may have said that I feel hopeful today, but there are a few things I might have forgotten to include. One of those things is that I woke up with a bad cold and cough. The second is that my weight has gone up by half a pound. However, I’m taking both these things with a pinch of salt. My weight can go back down. It’s not the end of the world. I know I have to be patient. I will keep trying every single day and I will succeed. As for the cold, screw it I’m going to work out anyway. I don’t care if I get my cold boogers all over the treadmill.

Okay maybe I do, but just enough to carry a napkin to blow my nose into. I don’t want other people getting sick. Other than I use gym gloves so, yeah, two birds one stone.

The point is, I was at a staggeringly low point yesterday just becuase I binged. This is something that comes normally to people who are like me. When we binge, and we know we have, there is no greater sense of doom that comes with it. You feel like crap, but the best thing, in my humble opinion is to sleep it off. Tomorrow is truly another day. And this is true if you have any kind of a mental trauma. Just sleep it off. You’ll be fine and more composed the next day.

I hope to wake up early tomorrow and hit the gym with double the intensity and determination. I had a half assed workout yesterday, and I’m so dying to make it up by making tomorrow twice as awesome.